-ΦMy Distilled SpiritΦ-

將近一年沒打網球
對著牆壁抽球把精力全部釋放
只有這時時間過得特別慢
靠著肉體的極度疲憊與痛苦大腦才能完全停止思考
但是打開Spiritualized又註定是個心碎的夜晚

幾個月前最後一次跑步大概還是只有10km
沒什麼動力再加上去

前幾趟回家到高爾夫練習場揮竿
不就是個揮竿動作而已
始終太過用力 協調性不足
空有一身蠻力
以前修柔道課期末比賽拿到分組冠軍
不過靠的不是什麼技巧而是肉體強度
也許我該去學拳擊  把我打昏也罷
反正我不怎麼在乎肢體的碰撞
就算是塊頭比我大的傢伙

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講得像是我不存在 這種被排除在外的感覺

因為這首歌又想起香草天空



Ladies and Gentlemen We Are Floating in Space
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All I want in life's a little bit of love
To take the pain away
Getting strong today
A giant step each day
All I want in life's a little bit of love
To take the pain away
Getting strong today
A giant step each day

I've been told
Only fools rush in
Only fools rush in
But I don't believe,
I don't believe
I could still fall in love with you

I will love you till I die
And I will love you all the time
So please put your sweet hand in mine
And float in space and drift in time

All my time until I die,
We'll float in space just you and I
And I will love you till I die
And I will love you all the time
So please put your sweet hand in mine
We'll float in space just you and I

I love you today, I guess that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to
Everything happens today
And we're out here in space
And I don't know where we are all going to
I love you today, I guess that's what you get
And I don't know where we are all going to

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這世界總和我想的一樣 和我希望的不一樣
夢比現實還真實的原因
或許是逃避心理使然 沒有人想從夢中醒來
什麼經歷這些你會成長的之類的屁話我一點也不這麼認為
展望未來期待明天這些事情又還沒發生
我正是這般膚淺幼稚 我只知道當下的痛苦是真的 
錯過了什麼都不存在 什 麼 都 沒 有
那些成長只是用來安慰自己的保護機制
因為你再也不會遇到同樣的人或事了